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Well here we are Jan 2 2013... I am so bored i am burning movies to watch. What a long boring process this is, sigh. But we made it thru New Years eve with no injuries except for two my 15 year old Daughter got into her first real fight, now I don't condone fighting at all but she kicked butt :) And my ex father inlaw slipped and broke his hip.

I was in a relationship with the father of my children for 18 years before i found the courage to leave him. He was a masterpiece good looks and to everyones knowledge he was the sweetest guy around.... well lets just say the world is different behind closed doors. I was abused mentally, physically and sexually it was hard but i loved him. Funny thing is i still do and i am not to sure why but i am strong enough now to stay away. He was so controlling and unfaithful, My daughter asked me when she was 11 why i didn't leave him and to this day all my kids DO NOT want us back together.

My Mom , sweetest woman ever, passed away just before i found my strength to leave him and then my store i owned went bankrupt. So needless to say my blogs will be about strength, adversity and how to survive depression and suicide and i will throw in bits of my everyday life now as well. I don't know if anyone will read these doesn't really matter as its a healing process for me and i hope maybe if someone does come across this then maybe my experiences can help them thru there troubles. signing off for today, Namaste.
Shannen